Buenos Dias a Todos!
In Proverbs, you can find a verse that says that if your faith fails you in times of trials and afflictions, your faith truly is small! And, here I am, feeling as if my faith is merely a minscule portion of a mustard seed. My faith has not failed, PRAISE THE LORD, but if words could only express the struggles of the past month and how they have all managed to come to a head at the same time, I would write a book to you all. Life here, as a single mother to 19 is simply not easy, but what life is? However, I am SO GRATFEUL that as I feel weaker and weaker, or see more and more of my imperfections and sins in the mirror of Gods Word and direction, that He alone sustains me for the plans He has for me.
As many of you may already know, this week, I was faced with a very difficult situation and decision. I almost lost 2 of my girls due to dishonesty, and the Pastor was decided on having them leave along with my helper Maria. I prayed fervently and had an UNIMAGINABLE amount of peace and serenity that the Lord was guiding the Pastors heart as Proverbs says He guides the Kings hearts, and praise Him for the final decision... we are ALL still here.
This whole purification process is a painful one, many times, but I will never stop praying that my Loving God continues sanctifying me little by little or CHUNKS by CHUNKS as I feel lately. I already gave Him my life, but I give it to Him a hundred times over every day when I surrender my desires and wants and feelings to Him. Its a daily fight, for which we have to be well trained and equipped. My muscles indeed are small, my bones ache, I dont always know which position to take in the battle... but My Awesome, Powerful God goes before me and HE FIGHTS FOR ME. In the midst of the storm, He is my Peace.
I am so thankful for each and every one of my girls. As I care for them, I often find myself thanking the Lord and rejoicing that they too care for me. They protect me. They counsel me. They teach me. And they love me! While it may be hard at times, and unbearably so, I can count my blessings and name them one by one. I can rejoice that I am still exactly where God put me, and blissfully content with my calling. We press on, with a new calm, with a new strength, slightly more purified, and looking forward to the future as God works for our good! We do not faint, and increase a little in faith!
Still working on my next prayer letter update. Please forgive me... I have not forgotten. Please pray for me to continue in the Lords steps as we pray for you! This week, I purchased 2 years of Permanent Permission to stay in Honduras. I also sent my passport off to Teguc, trusting the Lord to care for it. I should not have to leave the country again, only pay small fees for monthly extensions until I have my papers in about a month.
Here are some photos from my sisters visit. Enjoy!
|EAR WICKING. Cleaning out the girls ears for the first time using ear candels. Excuse my facial expression!|
|OUR NEW BLESSED BATHROOM... tiled, much cleaner, with a warm shower head, and a backwards door that opens inward and inhibits us from keeping our trashcan and toilet paper stand in the same place!|
|Almost a daily event... cleaning corn or beans as a family. Heres Gabby joining the party with some of my girls in their pjs. They arent always that joyful to clean corn... its a chore really, very rarely a party.|
|Heading into the country side to deliver supplies to 2 needful families. We trust that it is always more blessed to give than to receive and practice it!|
|Some of my 19 girls waiting for my return from dropping off some of the supplies.|
|An even more complete picture of my family. Thanks Kate for coming and blessing us. Happy Birthday!!!! We´ll be calling yah today, Lord willing!|